If Only

Sometimes people aren't aware of how little they need to say or do to hurt you, especially the ones that means the most to you. It's like even when you know they are joking, it still hurts a little how they bring across certain statements and comments. It's not like you want to take it seriously and be all cut up about it or anything, but it just happens that way sometimes and often times I wish I could just hit that "I don't give a shit" button, but sadly, life wasn't created with that luxury.  And that's kinda sad cause it would sure as hell help us to avoid feeling hurt and disappointed more times. But I guess life has a different thought in mind for us and in our hurt and disappointments are lessons to be learnt, but I seem to always be failing cause it's like I know it; I know the rules and strategies but when it comes on to applying them to every day life that's where I seem to fall short. I don't know how to not be hurt, even when the hurt is in noway necessary. I'm like a walking ball of feelings and that isn't always a good thing. Sighs. If only if only it came with a snooze button. On a good day i'm perfectly fine and well and can take anything life has to throw my way, an on the not so good days I crash and burn like that plane in 911 which is said to be one of the most devastating days in history, so that's saying something. Oh my this life of mine, I love it, I hate it, I wanna change it but not replace it. Paradox? I know.